Losing it :o(

I think all these hormones are finally getting to me.  I seem to be losing it somewhat this evening.  The smallest things are sending me into a complete meltdown....like dropping a few peas on the floor....WHAT, how stupid?!?!?  I just feel so fed up of this whole thing and feel like I'm never going to move on, which I know is complete rubbish as its only a few more days, a week at most (I seriously hope!), I just seem to have been on stimms forever, which really is the last thing I expected.  I thought it would take forever to DR and be really quick on stimms, instead it has been the complete opposite which I guess just goes to show that you can never predict how your body is going to respond to the drugs!  I think I just reallly need some 'me time' which I am hoping to get over the next couple of days as I am off work and can hopefully relax and take it easy.

Fingers crossed my silly body does what it should and we have a good number of follies ready by Wednesday, I really dont know what I will do if they say Ive got to continue longer, although I have to say I wont be at all suprised if they do after todays results!!

As they say, Que Sera Sera..... :o) xxxx

Fed up.com

Well scan #3 today and still no progress to next stage :o(  I'm getting really sick of all this waiting now.  I just want to get on with EC/ET and get the 2ww started.  I feel like I'm stuck in ground hog day!!!  Today I have about 10 size 8/9mm, a couple that are about 10mm, a 15mm and a 16.5mm, so I guess they are growing, just at a ridiculously slow pace!  They havent change my drug doses either which is frustrating, just got to keep crawling along and hope that they eventually grow to the required size.  Im just really hoping that I get a good number that grow as I dont want just a few after all this!  The injections I can just about handle, its the emotional turmoil that is getting really hard to cope with.  I just dont know how to feel, one minute I'm ok and really positive, the next I feel awful and just want it all over with.  I guess its the hormones raging but it doesnt make it any easier!  If hear "it will all be worth it in the end" one more time, I think I may just scream!  I know people are just trying to help and keep me positive but it really doesnt help, it just makes me feel even more frustrated!?  Oh well, it has to all come to an end at some point....doesnt it?!?!  I think I just need some time to myself, maybe a nice warm (not hot!) bath and a good book are in order :o) 

Roll on Wednesday and more blood tests!!!

Loads of love, luck and sticky babydust for all xxxx

Slowly Slowly

Well my 2nd stim scan didnt how much really!  There was very little change in the size of my follies.  The biggest now is 10.5 so they are starting to grow but very slowly, which is what they want as they are trying to minimise the risk of OHSS due to the nubmer of potential follies I have!  I am to continue with the stims for now and have to go back again for another scan and blood test on Monday.  I'm just really hoping that they grow lots over the weekend and I am ready come Monday....I've had enough of injections now!  I just want this stage to be over with and move onto the next steps :o)  I'm signed off work now until 21/09 which is quite a relief as I've been feeling so crappy and incedibly tired, I know I really need to take it easy and rest up if I have any chance of this being successful.

Fingers crossed everyone

Loads of love, luck and sticky babydust to all xxxx

A few too many!!!

Well I had my 1st stim scan today and the results were suprising to say the least....I have over 50 follicles!!!!!!
I have;
30+ on my right side, biggest being about 9
20+ on my left side, biggest being about 7.5
Didnt hear what my lining thickness was!?

I nervously awaited my phone call in the afternoon, worried to death that they might cancel my cycle....only to be told to carry on as I have been and go back for 2nd scan on Friday!?!?!?  I was quite suprised as they didnt seem concerned at all that I had got so many follies?!  I guess its a good thing so just have to trust them to know what they are doing and hope I dont end up with serious OHSS.  I am just hoping and praying now that I can get to EC ok with a good number of eggs and not too many to cause trouble for ET! 

Everything crossed for good results on Friday :o)  I'm really hoping that my follies will be ready then as I am really getting sick of injections now.  I am certainly ready for all this to be over and be in the 2ww!

Tons of love, luck and sticky babydust to all xxxx

Stimming!!!

Well its day 4 of stimms and so far so good.  The injections are quite painful but I've been using ice which is making it easier to do as you dont feel the needle as much!  Ive been getting really tender points at the injection site the day after which is a bit strange but all in all not too bad.  No major side effects just yet other than bloating which I am kinda used to cos of the endo.  My stimms scan is on Wed and I cant wait.  I just really hope that we get good results and there are lots of nice looking follies there :o)

DR Scan!

Had my DR scan today...went really well :o)  I am all DR'd now and have had confirmation I can start stimms tomorrow.....YAY!!!!!  Not that I'm exactly thrilled to be jabbing twice a day but hey ho, its a step closer to finishing the injections for good :o)  I cant believe how quickly it has all happened.  After the months of waiting and waiting and waiting, its all finally happening....very quickly!!!  I cant wait though, for the first time in my life, I will technically be pregnant...OMG!!!!  I just hope and pray with everything I have that it sticks :o)

Love, luck and babydust to all xxxx

Keep Going

Well its going ok.  The injections were really good for the first few days, no trouble, no pain, no problems.  After a week though I think my body is starting to feel the effects of being jabbed every day and filled with hormones.  The injections themselves are starting to be painful both to insert the needle and push the drug through.  I just keep reminding myself why I'm doing it and that it will all be worth it :o)  I'm having a few hot flushes and headaches but the acupuncture has really helped keep most of the side effects at bay.  I have a trapped nerve in my shoulder at the min which is causing me an extreme amount of pain.  I'm off work as I cant drive and the pain is just too much to concentrate on anything anyway :o(  I'm just hoping it calms down soon as I really dont want to be off work and could really do without this extra pain!!!  I have my DR scan tomorrow so am really excited to hopefully be starting stimms by the end of the week :o)  It will be all go soon after that and I will be in the 2ww......YAY!!!!  We have already had a couple of BFP's on my thread on the Care forum which is just fabulous.  I can only hope that I will be joining in with their celebrations soon :o)

Love, luck and sticky babydust to all xxxx

AF already!!!

The witch has actually turned up early for once!!!  CD25 and shes here so the nasty pill must have done the trick!!!  Im in pain but quite happy :o)  The injections are going really well, although my only wish would be that these headaches b*gger off!!!  All in all, so far so good sums it up pretty well.  Heres hoping that it all continues to go as smoothly! 

Bring it on :o) xx

And so it begins!!!!

Today was injection teach and I actually did my 1st DR injection :o)  They were happy for me to start today CD20.  It was a lot easier than I was expecting which was a nice suprise as I thought it would hurt as much as the HCG's did....but it didnt :o)  I am a lot less nervous/scared about doing the injections now, I am sure they will be fine!  As the good ol' cliche goes...."it will all be worth it in the end"!!!!

BRING IT ON!!!

Bring it on!!!

Only 2 more sleeps until I start DR injections :o)  I have injection teach tomorrow then start DR on Sat 7th Aug.  I absolutely cant wait to just get started.  Everything seems to have taken soooooooo long to come around, it will be fabulous to actually start tx.  I'm trying incredibly hard to keep my PMA as high as possible in the hope that it will pay off!  I'm absolutely LOVING acupuncture!  Its kinda painful sometimes for a split second when the needles go in, but it is so incredibly relaxing, I'm totally addicted to it!!!  Again, heres hoping that it will pay off and help me achieve my dream :o)

Love, luck and babydust xxxx