Its taken me a while to be able to come back here. The results where unsurprisingly negative. I was still kinda in shock I guess as I felt so sure that I was pregnant. Even after the 2nd bfn, I almost couldnt believe it was true. AF was still completely awol and I felt the same, even after stopping the meds but eventually the evil one turned up and reality finally sunk in...it had failed, I really wasnt having a baby. The hurt and pain kicked in big time and I was absolutely gutted, I just felt numb and sad, still do in many ways. I'm trying to accept that this part of our lives is over and it is time for plan b and moving on with our lives, albeit in a direction different to that we would have preferred. We have our review 1st May which we will go to with an open mind, but I am pretty sure they will tell me what I already know, my eggs are no good :o( not a nice thing to hear at 28. It still really hurts and I often feel sad and upset that our future may never have our own family in it but we are trying to move on and live our lives the way we always said we would if a baby never came our way. We have also decided to bring our plans to move to Cornwall forward quite dramatically. We aim to move in the next 5 years as opposed to when we retired!! Life is just too short to wait until you are old!!
I may not post on here again as our baby journey has pretty much come to an end but thank you to anyone who has read my blog and lots of love, luck and babydust to anyone who wants it.
Love to all xxxx
