Well its been a while since my last post! I started off this year with great hope and positivity. The rough plan was to spend a few months getting fit and healthy and in best possible form for our next ivf cycle. Unfortunately, that plan got totally wiped out in the 2nd week of Jan when my knee dislocated again. I was on crutches for a few weeks due to the pain and eventually after weeks of pain and no improvement, I saw a knee specialist who sent me for an MRI on my knee. This showed I had torn cartilage but no signs of recurrent dislocation. It was agreed that I would have an arthroscopy to repair the cartilage and look to see if my knee was indeed dislocating with a view to do mpfl surgery if this was the case. Of course, with my luck, this was the case and mpfl was done. I am now 2 weeks post surgery and its been hell! I am still in daily pain and cannot bend my knee more than a few degrees. I have the supporting splint removed tomorrow but will be undergoing physio for a number of months and on crutches for I dont know how much longer.
Obviously, this has all demolished my plans for getting fit and healthy...I'm at my worst state possible! The lack of movement also stops our ivf plans for the time being as I cant move enough for tx and cant drive to the clinic every week either! My emotions are somewhat all over the place really. On one side, I'm pretty upset that we cant get on with tx and in turn on with our lives come what may. Although, on the other hand, I'm relieved that I havent got to go through all that heartache again just yet. The thought of those phone calls after ec is just so fear inducing, I dont know if I'm strong enough to cope with it all over again, esp if it goes the same way :o(
Life is a rollercoaster........so true!
