...the final chapter of our baby journey. We have finally decided to give it one last try. Tomorrow we are booked in for the chromosome/Karyotype bloods and dh has the pleasure of doing a sperm sample for the DNA fragmentation test. I'm really not sure if I'm hoping they will show something up or not....if it shows something that we can treat, then all is good but if it shows something that isnt treatable, then thats it, game over, end of journey, no baby. The thought of either scares me somewhat! I really hope we just get some answers one way or another. I cant wait to get the test results back and get on with our 1st and last funded cycle. We made the decision to do this cycle as my wonderful mother-in-law offered to pay for it for us. It was a gift far too good to refuse. I think we need to have a clear line in the sand though before we commence this as we dont want to lose the next 10 years of our lives to IVF. As much as we want a baby, we also know how precious life is and will not surrender it to the constant pressures and heartache of IVF. I feel like I've said this a thousand times before but come what may, this is the end of our baby journey. I am absolutely terrified of going through this cycle but feel we have to do it to be able to trust that whatever the result we have given everything we can to our journey and can look back with no regrets if it just isnt meant to be.
Bring on the needles!
