Today after a long painful day (thanks endo), I was once again reminded just how unfair life can be. I thought I was doing OK. I thought I was coping quite well with postponing our fet. That was until I read on FB that a friend from school, who only married just a few weeks ago, is pregnant. It hit me so hard in the guts, I felt physically winded. Don't get me wrong, i would never wish the pain + heartache I + many others feel on anyone, but you still have to wonder about the fairness of it all. Why does someone, barely back from honeymoon get to be pregnant when someone who has tried for years still waits? What is fair about that? It's just cruel + hurtful :-(
Now I know many (including my dh) would say fairness just doesn't come into it but I'm afraid for me, it just does. I can't help but ask that unanswerable question...WHY?
WHY do others get pregnant without trying, when I have to struggle?
WHY do women lose babies they want so badly, when others couldn't care less?
WHY do I have to go through this heartache?
WHY do I have to feel such pain?
WHY WHY WHY???
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