About Me

I'm 33 and have been married since 2004. We were TTC for over 10 years and went through fertility treatment over 5 years. Unfortunately, I have endometriosis and adenomyosis but these havent been proven to be a cause to our infertility, we are in that huge black hole of 'unexplained'. In 2017, we decided on plan B and moved to Cornwall.

Friday 5 August 2011

Feeling Sad

Emotions seem to be all over the place at the min.  One minute I'm feeling ok and positive about our 6 little frosties, the next I'm feeling really down and convinced that we face a childless future which breaks my heart :o(  My dh would make such an amazing daddy and it hurts so much to think that I may never be able to give him that opportunity.  Then the positive side of me says shut up it aint over yet!!!  Its like I'm splilt in 2 and both sides are fighting it out over how I should feel.  I want the positive side to win because I truly believe that being positive has a great effect on both mind and body.  Its just really hard. 
I'm absolutely delighted that my sister got the all clear at her 12 week scan yesterday.  I wouldnt wish this kind of heartache on anyone.  As I have heard a lot from ivf sisters recently, its not someone elses baby I want, its our own.  It just makes me sad that there is a possibility we may never achieve that dream.

But hey, positive thinking eh?!  We have 6 super strong little frosties waiting for us and it only takes 1 ;o) 

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